Having precious creative energy expended on chatter is a big waste of time that I could be doing something productive, like reading or writing or daydreaming. I need to start making plans for my next creative endeavor, too. I have three paintings to my credit thanks to Paint with a Twist in Arlington. I never knew I could do that until I just decided to go one day. It's pretty therapeutic, also. Somehow, Amy, the shop owner, actually remembered my name after the first time she saw me. That has happened to me before, and the person told me that she couldn't forget me because I'm a 'character.' I have to admit that I enjoy being a character. The word character actually conjures images of stories, books, and far away places, but most of all, a sense that I can be who I am and I can become whatever I want to be. Development of literary characters is very deliberate and structural in its creation. The same is true of my personal character development. Since my adolescent years, I have been very purposefully and creatively making decisions about the kind of person I want to be. I want to be intelligent, caring, responsible, spontaneous, fun, and well, lots more things. I am becoming the things on my list, and my life is becoming the life I always wanted to have. The final, perfect product will never exist, but the journey of becoming is the top priority. In this, there is no failure; just a place on the continuum.
Will I delete my social media profiles in the name of creativity? No, but when I notice that I'm spending time looking at items that don't support who I choose to be, it's time to log off for the day. I'm still becoming what I hoped to be as an adult. At this point, I am enjoying the ride, rather than looking for the end of something and the beginning of something else. It's on this ride that the adventure continues!